Old Friends

O.k., so I ran across a few old friends Myspace site the other day and I'm in a predictiment to add a friend.

See here's the background of the WHOLE story (*the names are ficticious except mine): We were all in high school and I was dating this guy *Paul , and his best friend *Joe was dating *Lisa, and then there was *Jake, and *Tom thrown into the mix (all being best buds and all). My boyfriend *Paul and I had a horrible 7 year relationship that ended VERY badly and *Paul's bestfriend *Joe and *Lisa also had a very bad break up. I still remained friends with *Joe and *Lisa, but had separate contacts with the two of them (seeing as they hate each other).

Any way to get to the point. I haven't talked to *Paul in a really long time because of many reasons, but the main one is while my husband was gone, he would call me "to make sure that I was o.k." I mean, COME ON!!!!! He knew that I was engaged and I told him not to call MANY TIMES!!! Even asked his good friends *Joe, *Jake, and *Tom to tell him to quit calling me. I didn't want to change my number because one-I didn't know when I could give it to Ryan and two- I didn't want to change my life because of this stupid guy.

Well, *Joe wants me to add him to my myspace and wouldn't you know who is his friend also.... *Paul. I am afraid (which I should be because Ryan is here) that he is going to try to start contacting me again. I know that Ryan would beat the crap out of him if he tried to talk to me, and I don't want to put myself in that situation. But, I also want *Joe to be my myspace friend... Such a sticky predictament. I haven't talked to Ryan about it yet because he is at work... BUT I'M JUST A LITTLE CONFUSED....

I know that they say forgive and forget and I have done that. But, I'm afraid that I will become unchristian like to him and say some really nasty things because of all the anger I have botteled up inside of me.

PLEASE LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK!!!
And, pray for my sanity.