Pics

So, I wanted to put up pics also.

For the few people that do read my blog

So, I know that I don't post that often. and the subjects usually aren't "debateable" or whatever.. but for those of you who are loyal.. THANKS!!

Anyways (after that brief tantrum)... Ryan has been out of town since Tuesday and I really hate it when he leaves. I don't sleep well, Jezzy always fusses, it's hard for me to work the way I want, and I have to go yell at me tenants late at night and leave Jez alone in the appartment.

I'm having a really tough strugle right now with my job and what God wants me to do right now with my life. I know that I'm supposed to be preparing for the mission field (which I totally feel inadequate for, but that's another story). But, I don't know what I need to be doing as far as a job so I can help support my family. Ryan doesn't work because he is going back to school in the fall and the VA is going to pay for it (which is a wondeful blessing). So, that means to make up the difference, one of us has to work. Well, the VA really doesn't want Ryan to get a job and I know how much Ryan struggles with school, so I feel like I need to contribute and plus I really want to work (or at least have something to occupy my time besides Jez). But, at this job that I'm doing currently I work and take care of Jez (well some of the time because usually Ryan is home and can take care of her) and the house and the cooking, cleaning, etc... It just all piles up on me and I feel like I'm going to cave in. Now, don't get me wrong, Ryan helps most of the time... but still.....

SO, I don't know if this means that I need to find someone to watch Jez when Ryan goes back to school (because I would hate for him to have to take her, although I know he could do it) or find a different job- but put her in child care. If I could find a job taking care of other peoples children, I would jump on it in a heart beat (as long as they didn't mind that I had my own child)... but it had to pay enough for healthcare, part of a house or apparment payment, cell phone, car insurance, gas, etc. So, I don't know.

I just need some major prayers of support right now.... or suggestions or anything at all..

5 months old and counting

These are some pictures from the first week of April. I'm hoping to get professional ones for Mothers Day.. .but we'll see. We have been wonderfully blessed lately with things falling into place. The VA finally gave us the info that we needed to hear (they are going to pay for Ryans school and give Ryan some money for the rest of his life), Ryans truck will finally be getting fixed and we'll be able to have two cars again, we had a wonderful time at Pepperdine and Jezzy is growing big and will be 6 months in a couple of weeks.

Pepperdine was a good time for renewal of spirit and faith. This trip came at a time of struggle spiritually for me, so I had a great time singing songs, listening to lectures, and being spiritually uplifted. If you ever get a chance to go to Pepperdine, you should. I'll keep you guys updated on our orphanage process. Nelly Starkel is working on our business licence for us along with our non profit orginization licence. Anywho.. that's an update